I know, it’s weird that I’m doing this from my blog and not my Twitter, but I just need to vent here. I think it’s even weirder for me to even be public about my mental health and emotions, but I digress.
You may have noticed (if you even care) I’ve severely reduced my posting over the past couple of weeks. There’s a number of reasons for this, but this post outlines the major reason.
Over the past couple of weeks I’ve been seriously considering dropping this account and shutting down the entire @csclub_ account and all related sites. I’ve kept telling myself that I can’t do that because of all the data I have, but it’s just been lingering in the back of my mind that I could just end all this and make her forget about me.
I don’t even care what she would say if my account just up and disappeared. I wouldn’t have to worry about her anymore. I wouldn’t have to worry about my real life friends finding out about this account, and I wouldn’t have to worry about my employer potentially connecting the dots and finding out who runs all this.
This account has brought me into probably the lowest point of my life. Every time I open my Twitter, I’m bound to see Stormy calling me a pedophile and trying her hardest to cause drama and ruin people’s lives. It was bound to take a toll on my mental health at some point… and it started late 2020.
Around the time that people started figuring out about Stormy and started egging her on (please don’t do this), her allegations got even worse, even going as far as saying that people raped her son. As of recent, she made an account mentioning a ton of people, saying that these people came on an 11 year old.
While I thought I could take all this, late 2020 I started getting into more depressive spirals and hiding it behind a facade that I was just OK with what she was saying to me.
But I wasn’t.
Deep down, what she was saying worried me sick and depressed me even more. My mind tends to race thinking about these things, and always ended up going in bad places where my employer and family would find out about these allegations against me… it brings my mind into dark places that I don’t wish to go into detail here.
Running this entire thing is seriously affecting my mental health and I don’t know how long I can keep it up. Stormy has brought me to what is possibly the lowest point of my life, where my mental health is struggling and all I can do to fix it is just put it behind a fake smile.
I don’t know if I’ll ever drop this account and everything involved with it so I can just move on, but if I do, just please understand that this account oftentimes caused such mental anguish and depression that it was almost unbearable. I’m only human, and I can only take so much of this.